currently link up | emo, overwhelmed, time-obsessed, chocolate

Currently is a weekly link-up hosted by the amazing ♥ Randalin of Harvesting Kale and I am super happy to be co-hosting the series with her. I hope that you can participate by writing your own Currently post (using the provided themes or your own) and please join us by linking up. This week, around these parts, we have been...

Cleaning but just barely keeping up with simple cleaning tasks like the dishes. Somehow this week my non-work hours have all been super jam packed with passing out at the kids' bedtime or with staying up late or getting up stupid early (4:00am today) to do work. My new job requires a lot of writing and concentration which is hard for me to do when I'm in the office (Captain Distracto, at your what? Look! Something shiny!)  so I've been playing catch up at home but that's not a sustainable game plan. I need to figure out how to get my job done when I'm in the office, or start doing a day a week at home to jam out some projects, or... I don't know. I'm just tired and the house is NOT clean, ha, not at all.

Planning (or hoping to start planning soon) a summer trip to Disneyland. Like a Walleyworld style, no frills road trip, but a trip nonetheless! My breath isn't held at all on this. We need to figure out this year AND last year's taxes first. I'm our family's day-to-day accountant but Rob does our taxes and he does them during his spring break so fingers crossed, breaths held, that some kind of magic thing happens where we don't end up stinking broke in a few weeks.

Planting in my mind a really rad backyard garden! I was told that the golden planting rule in this part of the world is to wait to plant your garden until Mother's Day so I'm thinking that would be a really sweet way to spend that day with a trip to a local nursery to pick out some starters and a day in the yard (if the sun cooperates).

Skipping too much. See also: Cleaning. Sometimes you feel like you're drowning in to-dos and not doing enough and all you can do is (??) not take on too many new projects and truck through the projects you've got and hope the overwhelmed feeling slowly goes away. So there's that. Ugh, sorry, I'm not feeling very inspirational this morning. See also: 4am wakeup today AND we're out of coffee creamer. Head: Desk: Head: Desk. I've also been putting off the "trucking through" part lately in order to snuggle with Otto in the mornings instead of waking up to blog, work, clean, or other of "the things". I've had the feeling that he needs a little more focused attention lately and who knows if he's getting what he needs. I hope so. Trying to be a super mom feels like shit sometimes. I'm hoping that only a truly good mom would feel like shit though. Right? Bad moms probably feel awesome about doing a terrible job and Good moms feel like assholes for doing a good-but-could-be-better-always-criticize-self-never-satisfied-NEVER-SATISFIED job. Right? Someone give me a gold star and buy me some damn coffee creamer, please!

Wearing a maxi pad. As always, sorry Dad! You should stop reading the words and just look at the cute pictures of your grandkids. After a year of nursing, and still nursing but less so, I'm having my first period in about two years. So all emo tendencies and inner crying in corners and midnight eating super old frozen forgotten candy bars can get in line to buy me some damn coffee creamer and give me a gold star because hormones!

Look at how cute my kids are. That's about all the inspiration I need to keep my breakdowns confined to the shower and this here blog. This too shall pass. In the mean time, hide your chocolate, because I don't care how freezer burnt it is it is in danger and that danger looks a lot like a 34 year old, exhausted, sun-starved mama.

That was this week. Here are next week's SPRING! themes:

feeling, imagining, considering, listening to, moving